Batch 1-4 First CE Ever

I think mr. Lim, bro Mas & Lokman had presented their proposal as the 2012 ending soon. Me still clickling, flipping article journal..still what to write.. Shima on her way coz she continue her research which she done during master...but she havent take CE so cannot present the proposal may be in Jan 2013 ..there will be the second CE what should i do..tonight my brain seem want to read input-ouput table ..its interesting ....a book written in bahasa easy to understand ... i wish i can write in bahasa je.. well i wish all in this photo never give up...even it seem so hard to read nowday and my brain not working much like when we have to attend class.......the third phase look so more challengin ...clas-exam-consulation-ce-destertation .....i believe i can do it...it almost half way ..2yrs to go ..i cant give up .. The guys look happy in this photo also Dr Raihan ... Me and Mr Lim is the first batch in dba ... look like he will graduate first since he had passed the proposal presentation this dec...with bro mas & lokman from the 2nd batch...at least...someone moving forward.. May Allah give me strength to gain knowledge as much as i can and teach other ...

Discipline

It has been more than a month since i got my result.. as i knew to start writting is more challenging than attending class and exam. Because exam you have to sit what ever it is the time will come but to start writting its your own will... Last month i send my proposal to Prof Rokiah but it was rejected. She asked me to come out with other proposal which more related to business. But till now i just cannot write anything ... frankly i dont really like business topic i more interested in economic subject ...and modelling because it easier ... I suppose to meet her after send new proposal but till now i just being lazy ..i took two days leave, plan to spend my time at the libary but in the end i just sleep at home. Now is the second sem 2012 ( we was given 2 semester to complete the research proposal) but i still in lazy mode. Yesterday i read Tun Mahathir Book " A Doctor in the House" i need to have idea to come out with tile objcetive and method ... after reading one of the chapter in his book ..i think i not discipline.. or being lazy. I should force my self rather than following my heart.. Prof must have reason for rejecting my first proposal ... i should not give up. Nothing in this world is easy to achieve and you cannot just pray to Allah swt without doing nothing ..you must pray and work hard. I think Bro Mas, Lokman and Mr. Lim already denfence their proposal because they have thier own topic and supervisor... and they start one sem earlier than me. I wish that after writting this i can come out with better idea on the topic i want to do for my research............. Thinking without action will never have the end, that what i don now. I should start write again .... May ALLAH Bless me

Alhamdulillah!

Just called GSM today... Alhamdulillah i passed my CE ... it worth writting 6 pages each question (and not stand up from 9 to 2 pm during exam). Well i dont think i will take exam that long anymore... Now i understand why prof said i just want you to think and write give example, see your working eniviroment, your organization ..there is no right and wrong answer....to all the question (excpt acct and stats which i did not choose)... Now i must work hard for the third part that is destertation ... May Allah Bless Me and everyone Always

Indicator

Just received email from the new director of GSM ...i m scared my email address on the top of the list ...why???? it should start with "a" but mine is "s" why it on the top....i hope it not an indicator (i m the worst) prof may had mark my CE paper on the leadership.... ohhhh i m scared prof must be very pening coz i create most of the answer... he must knew its was me... I dnt know whether matric number can indicate gender ...like ic number. What ever it is ... you cannot answer perfectly in exam, coz what came out was all out of our spot questions.. May this Ramadan will give a peaceful mind and happiness to all my Prof who marking the paper...

Comprehensive Exam 15 July 2012

It supposed to be held last Sunday but due to the electrical failure at iium the exam was posponded. Tommorrow is the day there are 9 of us registered for the exam. All are guys except me. Until now i am not sure whether i have prepared for this exam but i have no choice but to take it because it was complusory. We need to pass this exam to defence our research proposal. According to the DBA regulation we have 3 time to take the exam if we not passing after repeating for second and third time we will be expell from the progarm. IIUM list 7 course work/subject where we need to choose 4 course/questions/subject We mostly decide to focus only on leadership, marketing, strategic mgmt ad finance. The others 3 subject offered were accounting, quantitative and economic. I took 3 days annual leave for this exam but most of the time i just sleep at home and not studying. Until Thursday i start reading, on wednesday i sleep and watch korean drama (i bought the cd), yesterday start after zohor until 1am because i watch harry porter on tv2. Most of the time i will be watching korean drama "secret garden" while reading and making notes. The truth i cannot concentrate and until now i have memories little only. I study based on the notes that the guys sent via email after their discussion group. I think all of them fully prepared because every night they have group discussion (6.30 -1am). I cant join because i feel uneasy to go to iium until late night. Prof said there is no wrong and correct answer you need to think...well i wish i can think critically during the exam tommorrow. It will start at 9 and end at 2pm. So we have 1.10 hours to finish each question. I write this today is to remind myself what i do before exam so if any unhappy result came out or after exam tomorrow i feel down, i should reflect back what was wrong with me so i cannot repeat it in future there is long way to go. I NEED TO WORDK HARD TO ACHIEVE SOMETHING. May ALLAH give us (me and friends) strength to give our best tomorrow. Allah knows the best so i will proceed with the exam tommorrow may Allah permudahkan segalanya. Amin ya rabbal alamin..

My Garden after 9 yrs

After 2 months my garden become green....with grass "rumput tilam" It is my hard work after retun from umrah i do by stage. First stage buy 50 after the grass dah hidup.. after 2 weeks i buy 50 more ...then it grows so green ..then yesterday i brought 75 keping so now my gradening done ....i think it nicer compared with previous ..nothing but lalang. I moved in at age 30 so now the exact date i turned 39 so...after 9 yrs ..i have a proper garden i can say... empthy no flower but now the it look nicer with green grass... it not easy to tanam i have to bersihkan all the area part by part ..and i always get flu after do the hard work ...

before this in 2007 (moved in 2003)

Motivation

Well early morning was called by ceo, surely made us feel uneasy. But for me when she talk it always make me think and feel motivate to work and explore more. She always have idea in doing analysis i really impress how she think. Not like others she looking figures with high interpretation to what actually happen to the world. She asked why? who? How it happen? what..... she so critised and always have high expectation. I think it is good to have leader like that think ..think and think although it make us stress sometime due to her high expectation. I feel that i only use a little of my brain compare to her. It so ashamed as a muslim i dont think like her..... Allah always want us to read to get knowledge that why the first word Prophet Muhammad learn is IQRA... read. I should think more and not just say i m bored ...i can do alot, it is not for myself but to others also. Mays Allah swt always bless me.

Umrah 29 Feb-13Mac 2012

Alhamdullilah i m back on 13 Mac 2012 ..flight landed at KLIA at 2.55pm. And after go thru Imegresen and taking laugage ... i out of KLIA at around 5pm....

(DATE ON PHOTO NOT CORRECT LUPA NAK SETTING ALL PHOTOS TAKEN DURING 1 MARCH -13 MARCH 2012)

(MASJID NABAWI AT NIGHT)

After 14 day and 12 night at Saudi Arabia ...became tetamu Allah is something i not expected BUT early this year my sis said she will taja me to Umarah i just say ok. Then everything goes smoothly even the visa where i need get letter and copy of IC from my WALI-sudenly my uncle came to KL..so all settle. My leave approved as my boss so nice now day i wish she will be nice to me forever.

My consultation report also completed and sent to IIUM on FRiday before i fly to Saudi on Wednesday.

On 29Feb (Wed) at 7pm we fly KL to Dubai transit Dubai to Madinah. Reach Madinah at 2am on 1 Mac 2012..the imegresen not that efficient everthing completed until 6am. We are so tired reach hotel at 7am. It so cold. I shared room with my sis and niece (8yrs old) and other jemaah (hjh jamal-nama glamour).

-MY SIS AND NIECE-

(MASJID NABAWI)


Before Zohor we went to Masjid Nabawi...so beautiful. That is my first time pray at Masjid Nabawi ..so big. We give salam to Nabi Muhammad and his friend ..

We stay at Madinah from 1 to 3 March 2012 (3 days 2 night)
Most of the time we solat Jemaah at Masjid Nabawi. For solat Suboh, Zuhor, Asar, Maghrib and Isyak. Between Subuh and Zohor we do shopping (i just went for shopping once on the second day and the last day before going to mecca).

The first day we was taken to ziarah masjid Qiblatin and Khandak, Masjid Kubah,masjid bilal, masjid umar, ladang kurma, bukit uhud, most of the masjid we just look from ouside je...

The last night at Madinah around 11pm we as group was take..n by our mutawir round masjid nabawi he explain about makam nabi and his friend ..i can't concenrate coz its so cold and as usual i got flu...that night us jemaah wanita went to Raudah. It was a place where doa paling mustajab and the actual Nabi house the carpert is green and it open on shecduele and for women the space so small so we have to like berebut2 even ikut turn. Alhamdullah we manage to doa at Raudah.

On 3rd Saturday moring after doa selamat tinggal at Masjid Nabawi we set off to Mecca. Reach Bir Ali where we Miqat we reach Mekah about 9-10pm. We have to sleep in Ihram for one night that moring at 9.30 we do our Umrah wajib (1st) led by mutawir.

(MECCA)
Subhanallah ...fist time walk in to Baitulharam ..i feel so small and a bit scared we human do alot of mistake ....seeing kaabah and thousand of people there make me feel so samll and more scared to do tawaf ...Alhamdullah when you join the group of people do the tawaf there always space only that there alot of people with big small bu wheel chair so u have to be careful ...everything will went smoothly...finish tawaf 7 times keliling kaabah ..solat sunat then ..(important sign green light) ..we went to saie ..from safa to marwah ...we have to walk and recite as well ..all we do we Allah in our heart ..finish 7 time ulang alik we tahalaul ...cut little of our hair. Done my umrah for first time...Alhamdulillah.

On 5-10 March we in Mecca we done our second and third umrah (umrah sunat) on 6 and 7 Mac. On 6 Mac we visit Mudzalifah, Mina, Jabal Nur ( i naik unta haha best) padang arfa..our Mutwair show us the journey if we buat Haji..so we can see the Khemah place for melontar etc. 7 Mac we went to ladang unta ..i bought susu unta at 5 rial but not drinking it..then go to masijd hudaibiah ..a place where Rasullulah sign the perjanjian hudaibiah..we mikat here

8-10 Mac we do our routine for us me my sis and niece i went for solat suboh jemaah at masijidil haram alone...arount 3.30-5.00am went for tawaf sunat then solat suboh jemaah i manage to solat at ladies conrner for suboh on the 10 Mac (next time insyallah i want to solat infront). We only can solat sunat near the Kaabah but not solat 5 waktu coz all for men ladies just small part i think 1% je.



For maghrib i went jemaah too but if i take my sis and niece along manage solat jemaah maghrib coz my niece mula buat perangai lari2 sana sini dalam masjid...but as we solat kat tingkat atas it is not too sesak compare bahagian bawah..the last day i went alone je coz my niece dah mula malas ..and on the 10 Mac satudrday i went with adik ..one of the jemaah age around 20 yrs ..after solat maghrib we tawaf sunat but we split then i pray isyak ..we went back on our own...

For Zohor and Asar me. my little niece and sis will solat jemaah at masjidil haram together ..twice we buy KFC yummy ...my niece take ice but not me ...flu and cough.

We stay at Al Aber Garden Hotel just less than 10 minit walk from masjidil haram ...

however on Saturday afternoon we was told that our hotel electricity will be cut off so we have to move to Jeddah on Sunday ..Well actually Mekah is under construction all the building will be destoryed and to be replace with new one like in Madinah...all the shop around us already closed and moved so the hotel is the last ...place coz there us still staying.

However when we want to moved to Jedah on Sunday afternoon we was told that the hotel will be diruntuhkan on Rabu coz there other few jemaah baru sampai have to moved to other hotel in mecca but For us since we will fly back on sunday the Travel agent decide that we just move to Jeddah. We rugi satu malam di mekah actually BUT it ALLAH punye ketentuan ..WE TAWAF WADA' OR TAWAF SELAMAT TINGGAL ON SUNDAY ...the stright go to Jeddah ...we stop at masjid terapung then to hotel. After spend one one at the hotel in Jedah we set off to airport at 3pm after zohor ..we back in Malaysia.

I think to do Umrah and Haji its better at age where you have stamina coz Umrah and Hajj is fizikal ibadah ..

Alhamdullah all went well however i think i miss many opprotunities ...i pray Allah to invite me again to Haj or umrah. Insya'allah i will do better .

Doa after solat sunat Tawaf Wada
Ya Tuanku, janganlah dijadikan tawaf dan ziarah hamba ini sebagai kali penghabisan di baitullahil Haram. Jika ditakdirkan ziarahini kali yang terkahir maka hamba pohonkan syurga sebagai gantinya dengan kemurahan-Mu, ya Tuhan yang maha pemurah lah maha mengasihani.

Sem 8 start in Januarry 2012

Extention ...that what i do this sem...start on 7 January 2012. I dnt know what will happen ..i register for comprehensive exam too...but i m not ready to take exam.

may Allah show me the way i should take....

Winter in January 2012

Wish i can spend few days in Russia...............