Its seem that are a lot of things i dnt know ..its interesting in a way, it happen naturally i guess ...Allah showed me the reality of life ...which for someone it maybe painful..but for other ..its was happines ...after i heard the story one by one... my question been answered ...awesome ...nothing is impossible because what ALLAH had for us is the best for all his creation ...but i just realize it today..it great to discover something new ...it all about life ...a new preseptive of life.. which .. i cant say here but smile to myself. It is real...oh its like that..how..its happen..sharing a big family ...SUBHANALLAH... she so happy... may Allah bless her and her family always...i just so happy for her...and bless coz Allah let her be my fren...Alhamdulillah.
i always wondering non-muslim convert is so knowledgeable about islam...compare that who born as muslim..why? well because they do research and study to find out the truth of the Allah.. Some muslim know alot about islam but not practising ...that is common now...
i like to know the feeling our new sisters ...they always open my eyes, my heart and my thinking ..which make me in tears ...sometimes... when thinking of it...how small i m in this temporary world
thanks my dear ritaulik ...i wish to know more and more about new sister....as it make me feel so bless and alwys grateful born as a Muslim and must also be more closer to HIM. May Allah Bless Us always...Amin
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Consultation Class 1 (Week 2 Sem 7)
It was the second week of Sem 7 but for us who taking consultation course yesterday it was our first meeting with the coodinator. I dont know why but i really dont like this course because it seem you sell things to client...i just not into it. I prefer taking exam and repeat many times rather doing this but what i can do, it was the requirement of this Program.
The topic that i get is not really relate to me but i think its new knowledge. At the end of the session, we have a talk with the coodinator and Bro Mas said that i should change the topic since it is not my field ...the coodinator also said the same things since i have to start learning the topic now but in reality ...consultant is an expert of the field they want to consult...No i m feel uneasy ..what to do ...
Looking back at the topic given, it like straight forward issue that can be solve using figures and modelling of course i need to understand the term and banking sector beacause it mix .acct, bankin, finance & stats..
I found a few articles which talking about the same topic done by Afican banks ....even the issue d same so maybe can follow ...
I think i cant give up now, even after coming back from the class it seem that we have to do all ourself...it seems all students from the private sector dont have prob in getting place and get paid for their consultation project, but for us who work in goverment, we have none ...the coodinator said that we must sell our self coz we are dba..i agree with that however ...as gov staf we are not like selling our service but we give our best service to the costomer without thinking to get paid coz the gov already paid us....and it foe the nation, i believe this is the limitation that the civil servant have.
..for this project the other solution is to get a partner to do it together but i m still thinking, if it good or not coz two head better than one also the clasmate good at finance.. but i not sure of it yet ..
..whatever the project must be on...if the client accept it .,,it consider pass ...in 3 months dont know what will happen ..still
..i need to do the proposal by this week to show it to the supervisor next week..
..i feel and think that i can do it but i m scared that i cannot deliver ...
Also i just think that GSM also not well prepare with this course...i feel something somewhere missing.........but i also dont know what is it...which make me feel upset...seeing the coorditor not really help but make me feel bad coz they asked about fee... (i always believe money is not everything what i want is the knowledge) but the classmate do help alot coz we face the same situation ...
Well now whatever i need to do the Gant Chart...
What to do life must goes on...i m not the lioness but i sould be like one to success ..i think
May Allah bless and make everthing easy for me.....Amin
The topic that i get is not really relate to me but i think its new knowledge. At the end of the session, we have a talk with the coodinator and Bro Mas said that i should change the topic since it is not my field ...the coodinator also said the same things since i have to start learning the topic now but in reality ...consultant is an expert of the field they want to consult...No i m feel uneasy ..what to do ...
Looking back at the topic given, it like straight forward issue that can be solve using figures and modelling of course i need to understand the term and banking sector beacause it mix .acct, bankin, finance & stats..
I found a few articles which talking about the same topic done by Afican banks ....even the issue d same so maybe can follow ...
I think i cant give up now, even after coming back from the class it seem that we have to do all ourself...it seems all students from the private sector dont have prob in getting place and get paid for their consultation project, but for us who work in goverment, we have none ...the coodinator said that we must sell our self coz we are dba..i agree with that however ...as gov staf we are not like selling our service but we give our best service to the costomer without thinking to get paid coz the gov already paid us....and it foe the nation, i believe this is the limitation that the civil servant have.
..for this project the other solution is to get a partner to do it together but i m still thinking, if it good or not coz two head better than one also the clasmate good at finance.. but i not sure of it yet ..
..whatever the project must be on...if the client accept it .,,it consider pass ...in 3 months dont know what will happen ..still
..i need to do the proposal by this week to show it to the supervisor next week..
..i feel and think that i can do it but i m scared that i cannot deliver ...
Also i just think that GSM also not well prepare with this course...i feel something somewhere missing.........but i also dont know what is it...which make me feel upset...seeing the coorditor not really help but make me feel bad coz they asked about fee... (i always believe money is not everything what i want is the knowledge) but the classmate do help alot coz we face the same situation ...
Well now whatever i need to do the Gant Chart...
What to do life must goes on...i m not the lioness but i sould be like one to success ..i think
May Allah bless and make everthing easy for me.....Amin
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Nice Day
This morning out of my house to work at 6.15am i look up ..the sky so cleasr even still dark there are the moon light and star ...most of my neighbour still quiet ..normally they are earlier than me..maybe because yesterday was a rainy day so the cold weather make them out late....
Reach ofic ..from the window i can see the clear sky ...blue, the green, the mountain ...yesterday and last few days all unseen ...dark and "jerebu" so today seem like a nice day .... i also feel fresh may be i slept alot last night ...after break fast ...i feel so sleepy ...
Today is the last day of 6 days fast in Syawal...well Ustazah in TV9 said there are 3 theories of fasting 6 days in Syawal
1. Qada first then fast 6 days for sunat (the best /afdhal)
2. Fast 6 days for Sunat Syawal then Qada (ok)
3. Qada and Sunat Syawal at the same time because (Wajib and Sunat can come together)
Well, what ever the important things that we fast 6 days in Syawal and Allah knew everthing ..
But of course in Syawal it so difficult to fast coz there are a lot of open house ..this morning my fren & staf said today got open house what, alot of food ... why you fast "rugi tau"...I said, its ok, anyway the food is the same and i cant eat much though ...my stomach not ok ..eat more then it i will get sick so better fast...haha....
Wish today continue to be a nice day...the sun raising ..i can feel the warmth...coz this ofic so cold argggggh...yesterday teribble like in fridge ..
May Allah Bless Us Always.......
Reach ofic ..from the window i can see the clear sky ...blue, the green, the mountain ...yesterday and last few days all unseen ...dark and "jerebu" so today seem like a nice day .... i also feel fresh may be i slept alot last night ...after break fast ...i feel so sleepy ...
Today is the last day of 6 days fast in Syawal...well Ustazah in TV9 said there are 3 theories of fasting 6 days in Syawal
1. Qada first then fast 6 days for sunat (the best /afdhal)
2. Fast 6 days for Sunat Syawal then Qada (ok)
3. Qada and Sunat Syawal at the same time because (Wajib and Sunat can come together)
Well, what ever the important things that we fast 6 days in Syawal and Allah knew everthing ..
But of course in Syawal it so difficult to fast coz there are a lot of open house ..this morning my fren & staf said today got open house what, alot of food ... why you fast "rugi tau"...I said, its ok, anyway the food is the same and i cant eat much though ...my stomach not ok ..eat more then it i will get sick so better fast...haha....
Wish today continue to be a nice day...the sun raising ..i can feel the warmth...coz this ofic so cold argggggh...yesterday teribble like in fridge ..
May Allah Bless Us Always.......
Friday, September 9, 2011
Stressful Week
Early September is the stress week...maybe due to new ceo so new way of work ...more challenging ..
Just end the press conference this morning ...two times release make us all not in mood for hari raya open house todya coz so much to do...for input..
Well what the real stress i have is on Tuesday night where i have to makephone cal to all level of JPM officers and lastly the SUB JPM at late night coz cabinet note...i cant do anything but to call him there is amendment..to be made and need his final say. well it not easy to work as gov servant, we all cant sleep well that night i sleep 3 hours at 5.30am on Wednesday i have drive to JPM and solat suboh at a mosque on the way there, reach JPM 6.50am ...well the officer said to be there at 7am..Alhamdulliah ..when we met him JPM approved ......so went to ofice at 11am ...it a lesson for us...
Then today the media relese since yesterday we prepare add input...until this morning of bef the event start we still prepare input...alhamdullah the event when smoothy....i believe that to have contact person is so important in this work coz everthing urgent so to get input fast you just call your fren in other orgz which looking at the fact...
working in the gov is like servcing the whole malaysian so we must proud and grateful for what we did..even we are so tired sometime coz of urgent call from ofice ...
May Allah bless us for everything we do...Amin
Just end the press conference this morning ...two times release make us all not in mood for hari raya open house todya coz so much to do...for input..
Well what the real stress i have is on Tuesday night where i have to makephone cal to all level of JPM officers and lastly the SUB JPM at late night coz cabinet note...i cant do anything but to call him there is amendment..to be made and need his final say. well it not easy to work as gov servant, we all cant sleep well that night i sleep 3 hours at 5.30am on Wednesday i have drive to JPM and solat suboh at a mosque on the way there, reach JPM 6.50am ...well the officer said to be there at 7am..Alhamdulliah ..when we met him JPM approved ......so went to ofice at 11am ...it a lesson for us...
Then today the media relese since yesterday we prepare add input...until this morning of bef the event start we still prepare input...alhamdullah the event when smoothy....i believe that to have contact person is so important in this work coz everthing urgent so to get input fast you just call your fren in other orgz which looking at the fact...
working in the gov is like servcing the whole malaysian so we must proud and grateful for what we did..even we are so tired sometime coz of urgent call from ofice ...
May Allah bless us for everything we do...Amin
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Fasting
wish can fast this whole week ...well dont know why when u fast there are many people invite you to lunch...yesterday my dear fren want to give me lunch treat in the morning other fren invite for bfast...i havent seen her for more than one month (fasting month) ..i think she miss me...haha..so she ask me to send her home in the afternoon ..so ok la... her house just near the ofic ...
this morning got meeting we have to bring raya cookies and prepare our own food ...i hate meeting but this time is the first meeting chaired by our new CEO so i should show my happy face... event though i knew there will be no new thing in the coming press release but still as my new ceo is a PHD holder her thinking quite impressing ...and i do like it some how ...it make us think depth too...
not feeling good today maybe coz this is the second day i fast after eating all those food during raya make my stomach upset ...errgghhh i drive and sleep this moring ...i just wish i can sleep more...
every night i read Journal on loan pricing half way..20 mintues reading i fall asleep.wake up again ...then sleep ..wake up ..and sleep...it continue until 12pm...i understand nothing ..how?... i should start writing the proposal but i m too lazy anyway the sem start on 11 Sept 2011 so i still have few days to rest myself.. i wish i can go to London with my fren this month but not lucky enough, not selected ...if we go together it will be a lot of fun ...but still ok.. been there in 2001 (alone)..visit Russel Square and British Muzeum ...
i wish today will be better day then yesterday ..and tomorrow will be better than today...insya'allah
this morning got meeting we have to bring raya cookies and prepare our own food ...i hate meeting but this time is the first meeting chaired by our new CEO so i should show my happy face... event though i knew there will be no new thing in the coming press release but still as my new ceo is a PHD holder her thinking quite impressing ...and i do like it some how ...it make us think depth too...
not feeling good today maybe coz this is the second day i fast after eating all those food during raya make my stomach upset ...errgghhh i drive and sleep this moring ...i just wish i can sleep more...
every night i read Journal on loan pricing half way..20 mintues reading i fall asleep.wake up again ...then sleep ..wake up ..and sleep...it continue until 12pm...i understand nothing ..how?... i should start writing the proposal but i m too lazy anyway the sem start on 11 Sept 2011 so i still have few days to rest myself.. i wish i can go to London with my fren this month but not lucky enough, not selected ...if we go together it will be a lot of fun ...but still ok.. been there in 2001 (alone)..visit Russel Square and British Muzeum ...
i wish today will be better day then yesterday ..and tomorrow will be better than today...insya'allah
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Syawal 2011
First time break fast for last Ramadhan not at my hometown. The first night of syawal first time at my own house in Selangor. This may be because my parents passed away. Last year we still go back to Johor coz my late father still with us. At the last day before went to my sis house to break fast we went to my father grave and recite yassin.
Driving back to Johor after solat suboh arrived at home town at around 12pm.
I celebrate Raya only one day went to place where my grandma use to stay then to my two aunt house then go back around 7.30pm, Really tired that day. Second day just stay at home in the morining then in the afternoon went to mother grave recite yassin then went to hardware shop my sis bought the stove for rumah kg.
Now i understand more that when we have no more parent we have nothing in this world. That why people build their own family so they will have someone to turn too. But at the end we still will be alone.
Driving back to KL on Thursday really tiring coz we went to JB early morning visit my uncle which reallty resemble my father...he is my father yoyounger brother his wife passed away during Ramadhan due to cancer (heart).
From JB drive back to KL ..reach home at 7.30pm...tired
May Allah bless me, my siblings and their family also my relatives, teachers and frens always.
Driving back to Johor after solat suboh arrived at home town at around 12pm.
I celebrate Raya only one day went to place where my grandma use to stay then to my two aunt house then go back around 7.30pm, Really tired that day. Second day just stay at home in the morining then in the afternoon went to mother grave recite yassin then went to hardware shop my sis bought the stove for rumah kg.
Now i understand more that when we have no more parent we have nothing in this world. That why people build their own family so they will have someone to turn too. But at the end we still will be alone.
Driving back to KL on Thursday really tiring coz we went to JB early morning visit my uncle which reallty resemble my father...he is my father yoyounger brother his wife passed away during Ramadhan due to cancer (heart).
From JB drive back to KL ..reach home at 7.30pm...tired
May Allah bless me, my siblings and their family also my relatives, teachers and frens always.
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