Lost & Lunch (Friday 30 Dec 2011)

Lunch at my fren house today....i went off from ofic at 12.20pm..i use the route that i dont..she told me to use. I m fed up and hate jem...driving there should be just 20 minutes but it take more than one hour...i want to give up and turn back but ...i reah her house after she gave me the direction via hp..

But its almost 1.30pm...she cooked alot tauchu undang, fried chiken, ikan asam pedas, sayur campur,sambal belacan and daging masak kicap, also daun salad..i ate alot of the sayur campur (3/4 of the plate)..we ate with her mom...

She made tea form me. We talk a little then i went back at 2.45pm lost again ..reach ofic late 3.20 but i pay back by coming back at 6.30...should be at 5pm

like........

Gifts

While u read r book, u will c the bookmark and remember me.

songket teddy bear malaysian product sit on small plate from africa...luv all my frens..

WITHDRAW

I decide to withdraw from cosultation course this sem but my lecturer wont let me..so i continue the course but i have change the scope of my consultaion. I had cancel my consultation at the bank yesterday because i really have no idea to explain eventhough i understand after Prof explained last week when i met him. I have to submit my report end of Nov but now i m preparing new proposal....i dont know if i have make the right decision to follow my lecturer instruction not to withdraw. ...

I hope i can get one more month till end of dec to complete my new project. If i failed i have to repeat the course next sem and lost 3k for the course ..

Anyway, from July -nov my health not good ..but alhamdulliah now getting better ..no more lost hearing and flue...less fever... but the effect of the medicine make me always sleepy and weak..

I pray to Allah everthing will goes smoothly after this. Semoga Allah permudahkan segalanya. Insya'allah.

Wish A Nice world_Nice People

Watching Buletin Utama at TV3 how a 2 years old girls knocked down by a van left alone on the road. The people passed by just let her be not one person but about 6 person ...then and old lady drag her to the side of the road ...later a lady in carry her and taking her to hospital..now the baby i would say juat 2 yrs old then still in comma now...all happen in China. I just wonder how can those people so cruel ignoring the painful baby on the street...i hate watch thing like this... the baby seem just like cat which knock down and left till it dry and mix with the tar ...and become part of the road tar...

...past few days alot of news of abandon baby also happen in Malaysia..a muslim country. if in China i dnt really understand their religion but in Malaysia ..a muslim ctry but the people now also seem like forget the main purpose of they are here in this world ..is as ALLAH servant and be a Khalifah ...now they behave like animal which cnt think what good and bad ..what dosa and pahala..

..i had headache watching and reading the new now days...add on my consultation ..also my hearing ..nose...head..eyes..fever...which is on and off..

...see prof last sundday..he said wil try to find the paper and email to me but till now still none ..wish he still remember.
..my fren offer me to join her doing the consultation next sem...i think if i cant do the ppt to my client bet 1-6 nov i will surrender...mean off to continue next sem...any no rushing for me..i just cant concentrate with my health which is on an off...
..i believe my health is more important...

Allah mumaini fi badani..Allah humaini fi samaai..Allah humaini fi basari....May ALLAH bless me always...

Proposal ppt last Sunday 11 Oct

I still need too clear what i have to do so i cant start the job...my supervior so busy so difficult to see him ..
so i just create the powerpoint with my own thought..my supervisor was there he seem clear of i presented but i think he dont have time to teach me so ask me to change to DEA ...BUt as my client want me to look at loan pricing...i m so confusion ,,, if the topic is DEA i have start the work.

BUT from what i see all my fren also have difficulties except for the full timer... what i am upset is the coodintor said he want to see us the partime more often esp me ... weired we got offic work and i just think this consultaion is not ness for us...we have to take leave to meet our client ...meaning it depend on our annual leave ..easy to said than done..

ever night i look at the topic ...last night i understand a little bit and i think see about simulation that my supervisor told during the presentation...he just not confidence in me i guess ..why dont he just give me the sample that he told so...

i email never respond ...it add to my stressness... anyway ..doing DBA is just my self satisfaction so nothing to worry. Even if i have to extend this sem ...i have done all the course work..as a part timer ...i got alot of time to write theis and even the comprehensive exam i havent sit yet so...just follow the flow. If i cant do this sem next sem. can do it..

Sickness

i got fever ever night after raya...ulser in my mouth plus flu every moring which i have to take medicine ..now i got hearing problem....i really feel uneasy ....my hearing prob start on Sunday...so i taking leave on Tues & Wed but till now my hearin still not ok..doctor gave said my hear is clean but she gave me liquid to melt the wax and antibiotic coz when she check my hear is ok but dnt know the inner...

But since i got fever and flu before this , it might relate to it..

i wish it heal fast i cant work with sound in my hear....

What should i do

Behind shedule i can say..this is the W4...but i have not complete the proposal for d consultation ... i had met the bank head of the branch he explained but i not really understand ..especially my fren who came with me change the topi to Al Rahu ...i m sad coz we should just focus on the topic ..but he said it so easy later now he quiet...i dont know what happen to him..but for me i have to proceed coz i had aske my bos to help me find me place...but Now ..my superviosr Prof. busy which we should have discussion tommorrow but he wont be around..meaning had to wait next week ( w5,....i think we should present our proposal to the comittee next week anayway...the coodinator also quiet so let it be....

What i should do now....the bank need to use the info before dec..also the final report should be submit end of sem Nov... so worst to worst we have to complete by Nov ..if not meaning i have to redo the project ...
Well let look it in positivly may be it strat late but..when it progres it will be quick one ..insya'allah...

Well ..i m d last minute type of person which most of the time only got idea at the last minute s..now i watch tv and sleeo alot...ofic work non-stop so many request ..can i say i dont want to do...or i dont know how...i think they thought that i m good at stats but actually not...i have to read and open the book when they ask somtehing...i just dnt understand why they think my background is STATS ..i got my first degree in ECON ..la ....where got stats.....How i want to explain to them i m no good at stats..but of course when they ask me i try my best to answer i think that why they think i m stats background ..any i hope what my director said during the meeting wont be true ..i dont like KPI ...

So bef met prof insyallah next week ( if he around ) i will ,meet someone from Affin bank ...she is my best fren freind ...to teach me how bank calculate loan pricing...what else may be if in mood to do dummmy report ...and compete proposal..BUT without METHODOLOGY coz i really dont have idea what method to use ...regression? SWAT analysis?... i saw my fren proposal got al lot of method ...

I just wonder if i can just do DEA for the bank..coz that one i knew how to do ..and like it..

Whatever happen i must think positive and grateful to ALLAH ...coz now i still in good health coz one of our prof got colon cancer stage 4 ..i think critical ..he taught us cor gov...i alwys remembrer during his class i will be out of the world, my mind will be wondering about reality of life, he was so Philosophy ...evey word got so deep meaning sometime i think..he is so amazing and e use the brain ALLAH give us fully...

We have to take quiz almost every week which we read book haha me especially ..he said he was proud of us when we come out with our definition of cor.gov.. (he also had visited my ofic)- also he is kind to me, during our last presentation General Motor..coz he ask me question and he said what he want to see is i can answer with confident) and let me went back home early at 8pm ..bec the ppt finish late at 11pm ...one more think my fren alwys said that prof said if u dont attend clas he will give u zero...but he is a kind person ...he also announced to the class that my grandma passed away..(i not telling anybody BUT he knew it bec visit my ofic and my bos told him)..that why i not attend clas..for two weeks ..

I wish he can recover even my fren said he is too weak..i remeber my sem 1 clasmate DBA colonal had passed away coz of colon cance .. BUT I belive ALLAH knew everthing and give the best to us...Insyallah he will recover..

see the above photo that is prof Arif in last day class he sat infront of me..I sat behind him at the second row..that is my favorite seat..never change place since the DBA clas start.... at this time i looked at him as he is speaking ...(cannot play games coz he will turn back and see what i do) so had to focus and just look at him....BUT IT IS MY STYLE THAT I ALWAYS ADORE PEOPLE WHO CAN THINK DEEP ...i realy adore him especially when he express about REALITY, THE TRUTH, LIFE & ALLAH etc...its really make my brain work ..

..Insya'allah all will be fine...May ALLAH BLESS US ALWAYS

A bless

Its seem that are a lot of things i dnt know ..its interesting in a way, it happen naturally i guess ...Allah showed me the reality of life ...which for someone it maybe painful..but for other ..its was happines ...after i heard the story one by one... my question been answered ...awesome ...nothing is impossible because what ALLAH had for us is the best for all his creation ...but i just realize it today..it great to discover something new ...it all about life ...a new preseptive of life.. which .. i cant say here but smile to myself. It is real...oh its like that..how..its happen..sharing a big family ...SUBHANALLAH... she so happy... may Allah bless her and her family always...i just so happy for her...and bless coz Allah let her be my fren...Alhamdulillah.

i always wondering non-muslim convert is so knowledgeable about islam...compare that who born as muslim..why? well because they do research and study to find out the truth of the Allah.. Some muslim know alot about islam but not practising ...that is common now...

i like to know the feeling our new sisters ...they always open my eyes, my heart and my thinking ..which make me in tears ...sometimes... when thinking of it...how small i m in this temporary world

thanks my dear ritaulik ...i wish to know more and more about new sister....as it make me feel so bless and alwys grateful born as a Muslim and must also be more closer to HIM. May Allah Bless Us always...Amin

Consultation Class 1 (Week 2 Sem 7)

It was the second week of Sem 7 but for us who taking consultation course yesterday it was our first meeting with the coodinator. I dont know why but i really dont like this course because it seem you sell things to client...i just not into it. I prefer taking exam and repeat many times rather doing this but what i can do, it was the requirement of this Program.

The topic that i get is not really relate to me but i think its new knowledge. At the end of the session, we have a talk with the coodinator and Bro Mas said that i should change the topic since it is not my field ...the coodinator also said the same things since i have to start learning the topic now but in reality ...consultant is an expert of the field they want to consult...No i m feel uneasy ..what to do ...

Looking back at the topic given, it like straight forward issue that can be solve using figures and modelling of course i need to understand the term and banking sector beacause it mix .acct, bankin, finance & stats..

I found a few articles which talking about the same topic done by Afican banks ....even the issue d same so maybe can follow ...

I think i cant give up now, even after coming back from the class it seem that we have to do all ourself...it seems all students from the private sector dont have prob in getting place and get paid for their consultation project, but for us who work in goverment, we have none ...the coodinator said that we must sell our self coz we are dba..i agree with that however ...as gov staf we are not like selling our service but we give our best service to the costomer without thinking to get paid coz the gov already paid us....and it foe the nation, i believe this is the limitation that the civil servant have.

..for this project the other solution is to get a partner to do it together but i m still thinking, if it good or not coz two head better than one also the clasmate good at finance.. but i not sure of it yet ..

..whatever the project must be on...if the client accept it .,,it consider pass ...in 3 months dont know what will happen ..still

..i need to do the proposal by this week to show it to the supervisor next week..

..i feel and think that i can do it but i m scared that i cannot deliver ...

Also i just think that GSM also not well prepare with this course...i feel something somewhere missing.........but i also dont know what is it...which make me feel upset...seeing the coorditor not really help but make me feel bad coz they asked about fee... (i always believe money is not everything what i want is the knowledge) but the classmate do help alot coz we face the same situation ...

Well now whatever i need to do the Gant Chart...

What to do life must goes on...i m not the lioness but i sould be like one to success ..i think

May Allah bless and make everthing easy for me.....Amin

Nice Day

This morning out of my house to work at 6.15am i look up ..the sky so cleasr even still dark there are the moon light and star ...most of my neighbour still quiet ..normally they are earlier than me..maybe because yesterday was a rainy day so the cold weather make them out late....

Reach ofic ..from the window i can see the clear sky ...blue, the green, the mountain ...yesterday and last few days all unseen ...dark and "jerebu" so today seem like a nice day .... i also feel fresh may be i slept alot last night ...after break fast ...i feel so sleepy ...

Today is the last day of 6 days fast in Syawal...well Ustazah in TV9 said there are 3 theories of fasting 6 days in Syawal
1. Qada first then fast 6 days for sunat (the best /afdhal)
2. Fast 6 days for Sunat Syawal then Qada (ok)
3. Qada and Sunat Syawal at the same time because (Wajib and Sunat can come together)

Well, what ever the important things that we fast 6 days in Syawal and Allah knew everthing ..

But of course in Syawal it so difficult to fast coz there are a lot of open house ..this morning my fren & staf said today got open house what, alot of food ... why you fast "rugi tau"...I said, its ok, anyway the food is the same and i cant eat much though ...my stomach not ok ..eat more then it i will get sick so better fast...haha....

Wish today continue to be a nice day...the sun raising ..i can feel the warmth...coz this ofic so cold argggggh...yesterday teribble like in fridge ..

May Allah Bless Us Always.......

Stressful Week

Early September is the stress week...maybe due to new ceo so new way of work ...more challenging ..

Just end the press conference this morning ...two times release make us all not in mood for hari raya open house todya coz so much to do...for input..

Well what the real stress i have is on Tuesday night where i have to makephone cal to all level of JPM officers and lastly the SUB JPM at late night coz cabinet note...i cant do anything but to call him there is amendment..to be made and need his final say. well it not easy to work as gov servant, we all cant sleep well that night i sleep 3 hours at 5.30am on Wednesday i have drive to JPM and solat suboh at a mosque on the way there, reach JPM 6.50am ...well the officer said to be there at 7am..Alhamdulliah ..when we met him JPM approved ......so went to ofice at 11am ...it a lesson for us...

Then today the media relese since yesterday we prepare add input...until this morning of bef the event start we still prepare input...alhamdullah the event when smoothy....i believe that to have contact person is so important in this work coz everthing urgent so to get input fast you just call your fren in other orgz which looking at the fact...

working in the gov is like servcing the whole malaysian so we must proud and grateful for what we did..even we are so tired sometime coz of urgent call from ofice ...

May Allah bless us for everything we do...Amin

Fasting

wish can fast this whole week ...well dont know why when u fast there are many people invite you to lunch...yesterday my dear fren want to give me lunch treat in the morning other fren invite for bfast...i havent seen her for more than one month (fasting month) ..i think she miss me...haha..so she ask me to send her home in the afternoon ..so ok la... her house just near the ofic ...

this morning got meeting we have to bring raya cookies and prepare our own food ...i hate meeting but this time is the first meeting chaired by our new CEO so i should show my happy face... event though i knew there will be no new thing in the coming press release but still as my new ceo is a PHD holder her thinking quite impressing ...and i do like it some how ...it make us think depth too...

not feeling good today maybe coz this is the second day i fast after eating all those food during raya make my stomach upset ...errgghhh i drive and sleep this moring ...i just wish i can sleep more...

every night i read Journal on loan pricing half way..20 mintues reading i fall asleep.wake up again ...then sleep ..wake up ..and sleep...it continue until 12pm...i understand nothing ..how?... i should start writing the proposal but i m too lazy anyway the sem start on 11 Sept 2011 so i still have few days to rest myself.. i wish i can go to London with my fren this month but not lucky enough, not selected ...if we go together it will be a lot of fun ...but still ok.. been there in 2001 (alone)..visit Russel Square and British Muzeum ...

i wish today will be better day then yesterday ..and tomorrow will be better than today...insya'allah

Syawal 2011

First time break fast for last Ramadhan not at my hometown. The first night of syawal first time at my own house in Selangor. This may be because my parents passed away. Last year we still go back to Johor coz my late father still with us. At the last day before went to my sis house to break fast we went to my father grave and recite yassin.

Driving back to Johor after solat suboh arrived at home town at around 12pm.

I celebrate Raya only one day went to place where my grandma use to stay then to my two aunt house then go back around 7.30pm, Really tired that day. Second day just stay at home in the morining then in the afternoon went to mother grave recite yassin then went to hardware shop my sis bought the stove for rumah kg.

Now i understand more that when we have no more parent we have nothing in this world. That why people build their own family so they will have someone to turn too. But at the end we still will be alone.

Driving back to KL on Thursday really tiring coz we went to JB early morning visit my uncle which reallty resemble my father...he is my father yoyounger brother his wife passed away during Ramadhan due to cancer (heart).

From JB drive back to KL ..reach home at 7.30pm...tired
May Allah bless me, my siblings and their family also my relatives, teachers and frens always.

Ramadhan 1432

Today is the last day of Ramadhan 1432..my ofice so quite coz everyone went on leave..

I pray i will meet next Ramadhan with more ibadat ...well last Ramadhan is the last Ramadhan for my father and my grand mother..

Now i m left alone ...nobody to think of or care of... i dnt have to sad coz that is the realty of human being ..we are not premenant here...i alway thinking when i will be gone for goods ..where...how.... we can only pray to be put in Firdaus..but no one know .. except HIM.

..last night i have guests ...two beautiful ladies from Russia my classmate at GSM..
rita n nata...they bring very tasty dishes awesome...that is the first time i received guest for dinner... we talk and talk until about 10.30 pm....then they left. It was a very nice iftar n dinner i had ever had ....

..both of them also bring cookies and pizza ...nice...

...ramadhan ending ...Syawal coming.... next more challenging days ....insya'allah this syawal can be clebrate better than last year...may Allah bless me in this journey ....in this temporary world

Consultancy Course start on Sept

Met with lecturer on Thursday, Dr Raihan said can proceed with the loan pricing. She said i had to learn on the topic and gave me 4 journal to read...

Its just ok with me ...learn new things is good but i also a little bit scared coz there will be alot more to do after this..

Next sem consultation

...i think will differ this sem coz till now cannot find a place to do the consultation services ....i apply one but till now they wont give me details of the contact person so how to register the subject...pening nih...if give me the issue but they dont want to identify the person incharge so how i want to fill up the form...

i think dah nak give up je this dba ....

WHAT the three excited guys said after finish course work

Fron Bro Mas

That's my last exam for the coursework. I hope you all benefit from the discussion last nite and managed to answer the exam questions this morning. We could have done better if the discussion was held a week earlier so that we could do proper revision. Nonetheless, it was already over for me....br Lokman, sis Siti and Kabian.

I wish to take opportunity to thank all of you for the memorable experience in doing the coursework together. I would certainly miss the jokes and laughters, especially while doing intensive revision for the exams.

Now that is over, I will look forward to prepare for the coming comprehensive exam at the end of the year or early next year. Whatever, I will attempt to write more in this platform as part of my preparation for thesis writing...ha ha ha

For those who have to submit assignments and take home exams....best of luck! I doa for your success!

For Saad, have a nice trip back to Pakistan.

For br. Lokman and br. Halim, hope to see you in Makkah soon.

Finally but not least, selamat menyambut Ramdhan al-Mubarak.

Salaam and best regards,
Lots of love from me,

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From Bro. Lim

Dear DBA friends,

When I say dear friends, I mean good friends. We are all color blind as far as nationality or racial is concerned. We do not play politics in the class and I strongly against it. Most of us hold high respect for our Professors and lecturers; and that should remain that way. We should be humble in front of them and do not belittle them even if we excel better than them finacially or in many other forms. That should be the ground rules as a student. We should hold high morale and ethics for the younger ones to follow.
Lastly, should there be any ill feelings I have/had during the discussions, conversations & arguments with anyone of you; here is my sincere apology.
This may be my last semester; but I will be still around here and there or an email away.


My compliments to all of you as follows:

Bro Ismet: Thank you so much for all the runnings that you have done for the class. You may be boiling inside you occassionally and I am sure it is a very memorable performance if you think back. Hope you can take a good rest soon.

Bro Shahruddin: We have been partners a few times. I sincerely thank you for the help on my weak assignments. When there is dateline, I can trust you.

Bro Halim: You have taken over Mas & Lokman's jobs for organizing the revision classes. You are very generous and doing a pretty good job in helping others.Keep up the good work.

Bro Slamet: I hope you would come up with a good research so that Petronas can increase oil production. You are the life saver of Malaysian oil revenue.

Sr. Siti: Sometimes I see you, sometime I don't. You were very shy and timid when I first met you 2 years ago. I had to start a conversation with you. But you are a tough cookies now, because you are the only one left from the first semester completing the course work. Congratulation to you. (I LIKE THIS COMMENT)

Sr. Azlina: You are a superlady. Why I say that? You have devoted so much time to your young children's education and your mum's medical attention; yet you fight every second to stay awake to be in class and complete your assignments. No one in this DBA class can match you abilities so far. Please keep up your good work. You have perform very well so far.

Sr. Nurhasimah: Thanks for choosing to sit beside me. You are my daughter's age. You are in the right path and I know you have a bright career ahead.

Bro Baraa: I hope your country will gain real freedom in the near future.

Bro Saad: As I always say. Come and marry a Malaysian girl and stay in Malaysia.

Bro Ansar: You have been too dependent on all of us because of your heavy business works. Who benefits at the end? I; because you ended up giving me a consultation work for my next semester.
Anyway, over the last few semesters I have been observing you, you have learnt the staying-put strategies. You are no more dependent on anybody to do your projects now. You are independent now. We do not need any hypothesis testing. This is your biggest improvement. I wish you great success in your future semesters.

Bro Raj: You are a good friend to all of us. You speak very well. I must admit you are voted the best speaker. I know you are disappointed with your Quantitative's results. Don't let that derail you. Build up the courage and redo it. Prof. Saodah teaches us the right way of learning from mistakes. Keep up with the race; it is not over yet. We are all behind to help you. Ask the experts Halim, Lokman & Masripan.

Bro Masripan: I must admit you are the source of inspiration for many of us. You are thorough and detail in you works. Very generous in helping others and sharing your knowledge and experience. A quality not many people have. It is something we all must learn from you.

Bro Lokman: Our topscorer. You are a perfectionist. You have become our database for comfirming our theories. We need people like you to keep us on the right track. Anyway, it is time to take it easy a bit. Please spend a bit more time with your family now.

Lastly, regards to our two wonderful friends from Russia.

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from bro lokman


Assalamualaikum wbt....
Salam Sejahtera
Salam Satu Malaysia

I wish everybody in very good mood now...insyaallah
even some of us still struggling to meet the date line...this
week....but it is a part and parcel of our life....the colors of our
life.....Gambatte (Good Luck in Japanese)...

I read and understand deeply....what is Dr. Kabian and Dr. Masripan
"express with love" in earlier email,

I would like to congratulate both of you in advance ("Dr".)....coz
both of you....definitely both of you are the "inspiration" to the
younger generation ("like me"....i thot....ha ha)....
your commitment, diligent, cooperation, humbleness,
trustworthiness....and so many things....i can not write all here...
right....

Actually I feel bad and guilty if I'm not respond anything to the
email from both of you....
however, when i recalled back the remark given by Dr. Mas in his
email, earlier....
.... "OK, over to you Br. Lokman, Br. Halim...and the rest. Now back
to my quali report..." I know by facts....that I can't express more
here....indeed!

For...me our DBA group is THE BEST GROUP EVER....
if u ask randomly,cluster, systematic or random stratified.....and
pick up anyone of us.....
They will give the same answer....
We Are the best group....we are brothers and sister......
....even in reality, we are not sharing the same parent....but
actually we are real "brothers and sisters"....".we take care to each
other professionally, we feel bad if someone of us facing something
bad...and we always be there when someone of us need
us"...Alhamdulillah...Allah is Great... That is a real
"Brotherhood"...i feel it since the day one i was here....
i thot...that is one of the main reason behind.....I always spend my
time here.... in iium, when i have free time (I smile alone, to myself
...when i read a remark given to me by Dr Kabian...."Please spend a

bit more time with your family now."


OK...Dear Friends (Dr. Kabian, 2011)...

For me....this is not the ending of our friendship and our brotherhood

For me...This is THE BEGINING.....The HISTORY.....JUST BEGIN.....InsyaAllah

....."Like mountain climbers, Helping each other.....Make Impossible
things....POSSIBLE"...insyaAllah.

my last exam 9-12 noon 24072011

This moring i sat for my last exam in coursework... if feel nothing special coz there are two more assgmnet to submit bef end of this week.

And bec. i dont have best fren in the clas not like during mba i have a lot of fun.

DBA class there are 3 ladies other all male. Male like to make joke and talk thing i dnt like to hear so i never join their study group or they call it jamaah...but i think my two ladies fren can answer the exam question easily coz they join the jamaah.. anyway past is past ..my answer as ususl cannot remmeber what was read during exam so c i create my own answer ..what ever i wish prof give me above B if not it wont be my last exam hahaha...........anyway ther is comprehensive exam eraly next year before we can start write our dessertation..........that one i hv to join because guy knew how to get tips from prof also they are samrt ..alway give idea and talk much also so happy to help other...

so for today ....still long wayt to go 3yrs more ...2 yrs past .....may Allah Bless me always

Missed the last Class in sem 6 cum DBA program

Sem 6 is my last course work after this consultancy and dissertation......3 years more .....insya'allah..

Never i thought i would miss my last class ..for two years in this program..i never miss my last day in class for each semester, but Allah knows the best..my sore troat start on Thursday dragg till now ..on sunday i on MC ... my eyes swollen in saturday like getting this sakit mata ... my head so feel so heavy and i cant think at all..that day i got to present my proposal for quantitative class which carry 20 marks...

Well what to do my mark will be base on 80 cost lost the 20. But prof so kind she said i had to present to her individully ..so i got back my 20 marks...wish she kesian and give me markah kesian masa present this thursday cos ..i actually dnt know how to present to her coz now my head pon pening tegk proposal tu..

What ever i will only show her what i know even it will be short je bec my class mate ppt all more than 25 slide ....huhu...i also dont understand what they talk about ...most of them about SMEs that and this...

my tekak masih gatal and batuk ....i think ada blood sikit maybe sbb my tekak so kering....bila batuk rasa sakit betul tekak ni...

...semoga Allah permudahkan this thursday ppt...wish prof understand what i dnt...

scale

my fren gave me a scale...digital one..
now every day and night i measure my weight ....its above 50 hmmm dulu2 53 je if timang kat rumah kakak..but now it seem 55-56 ..ish dah memberat la...i m 156-157 cm tall ..so normal but to me dah critical dah ..need to loose weight around 51-53 je mcm dulu2..if imposible 53-54 pon ok sb i m older now ..mgkn less excersie ..

ni tengah pening nak present quantitive projet ahad nih..mcm biasa tak boleh fikir all tak menjadi ..asyik baca journal je tapi tak tahu mcm mana nak put it together...tapi whatever happen present je at least dpt mark...over 20 lak tu..i think prof dont like me coz i didnt see her ....everybody who see her get better mark..

kira2 mark dia bagi for assgment mcam tak lulus je 6/4/4.5 so 14.5/30 mmg sah la tak lepas ni...i dnt care la dah rasa malas nak study nih........prof yg dulu cakap lain n this prof cakap lain...

..i think i like my fren more than the gift i get...

play n music..

team play...
we pay alot..music is slient and sound..
haha hoho hihi...
the instruster said that in india ....

..now i m watching bones ... i like dr bones she so direct person n have a very clear mind dnt kow how to lie....in her life all must be logic can be prove ..a scientis ...smart one ...she also writing novel...n rich too...that what she describe herself to he frens in this episod haha...the bones she found tonight is her frens bones...reunion ..bloody one..ishh ...

now my shaker ..i got from team play proud of myself eventhough i did little jer..but as a group i also get one hehe

Stresssss

4 class left .....final exam 24 July....
All asmnt not complete yet...ambik cuti 2 days done nothing..i think my brain dah confuse with ofic and study all become complicated ...so i stuck at all level in finishing the work...even ofic work become disaster...

..i try to focus but still fail...thought to attend the africa dialoge this moring but since asment n ppt for sunday not complete so cancel...

..i had 3 criticl journal to submit none done
.. quantitative project ..stuck at LR ..what happen
..qualitative project..sunday ppt...project on stress interview 2 respondent not yet..

i think i m confuse when i had to study research method which was split into to quantitative and qualitative both got project to be done....

...yesterday is the worst day i dah marah budak2 kat ofic key data dah seminngu lebih tak siap2 ...pelik byk reason diorng...itu ini la...plg bad bos minta buat corr sitc wth BEC guna 9 digit..United nation pon tak buat adoh ....

---now what ever happen kena buat ppt utk esok tibai je...my tpic will be on causes of stress and how to cope...

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A vase

yess like it...thanks for helping out

i think it is a vase but it also look like a bowl whatever it is it was a gift from my fren who visited my house today...first time came we eat lunch at a resturant..ago to my house ...then drink coffee and eat biscut then go back to work...bad jem today reach ofic late ...

pokok mangga....

Pokok mangga depan rumah berbunga (sikit je) setelah 5 bulan abah passed away....the pokok mangga abah yg tanam and he like to tgk and check buah yg dah masak...ingat pokok mangga dah tak nak berbungga lg lps abah tiada 5 bulan dah berlalu akhirnya berbunga tapi tak macam dulu...penuh dan hampir keseluruhan pokok ada bunga...........

...what more i m lazier than before not watch tv and sleep my new hobby ...huhu my last sem course work seem disaster ...

2 kali ponteng class dah

dapat anak saudara lelaki on 26 april...adik lahirkan anak kedua ....ponteng class hari agai on 1 may after ponteng clas pada 24 may coz demam..

meaning i already missed 2 class this sem ..max dah so how...

i think ziarah my sis in JB is more imporant than g class.............

Buy not read

buy at Times plaza damas because Ojah said limited edition.....tapi dok baca lagi...buku teks pon tak baca lg..asyik belek2 je...tebal ishhhh...bila nak start baca nihhhh..

17.4.2011 First Class Sem 6

this is my last sem for course work...next sem 7 will be consultation...
i came early today bfast at iium ...i thought i m the first person but our prof for quntative research method already there..the good thing is i asked whether she is our lecturer hehehe she our first female lecturer all sem we have male lecturer and majority foreigner ..but here a malay lady age 60 soft spoken and alot of experience...

the second class cancel for this week ...i m so happy coz can relax ....

the class seem ok je but i heard one of our clasmate was kick off because fail to maintain cgpa 3 and above.............

so i must always grateful coz still can continue my study here...need to read alot...tody we given two books to read evey week before class...

insyaallah i will read more this sem bec need to prepare for a proposal ..and consultation

result in decreasing trend

my result came out this morning ..check via student portal i got as usual B strategic mgmt and B+ science management ...........alhamdulliah better than last sem but overall (cgpa) drop 0.2 pont...only one sem left for the course work....start on 17 April 2011.........wish i can get better result but my cgpa wont be that good compare to my MBA ..maybe getting older don't like to memorize

knowleadge not just good exam result but more important is the implemtation part and how use it in daily life

exam 13.3.2011

..we were given 5 hours ...open book ...to answer the exam questions
But still cannot finish my reason is i don't know how to answer hahaha..coz prof ask me ...have u finish

i think open book exam make us read the book rather answer the question but less stress.....i like it even i knew that my result wont look good this sem. at least i finish the sem with only absent 2 class...

exam 6.3.11

..again i goreng ..masa exam...on saturday main ping pong.. ahad g exam...pelik rasa tapi sbb masa class prof asyik baca journal je jadi tak rasa takut pon...doa prof bagi markah kesian ...sb lepas exam tengok clas mate discuss semua keluar kat exam ...fakta tu nampak macam sama saja tapi mine tak structured mcm mrk discuss.. espicaly future direction of the mgmt strategi research pakai taram je.....sebenarnya tahu apa dia nak tapi tak ingat quardrant tu ...so goreng la...soalan 1 ...3 thories contigency,agency and resourse based view ....tu pon goreng jugak sbb ingat satu je contigency itu pon secara umum...soalan no 2 sbb ingat contency theory je jadi reserach framework tu pon i put relate to contigency hehe .........what ever now i knew what prof want us to learn during the four month class.....

to write a research u must know what theory u are reffering to so that u can support your research question with fact...also contribute to the theory ...

SEM 5 last class

yesterday 13 feb my last clas for sem 5,....haha

my exam will be on 6 & 13 March so i have 2 weeks to study for both paper startegic management and mgmt science...

lalala.....what happen yesterday ?? as usual mgmnt science clas start at 8am but i arrived at 9am...before this i dnt like mgmnt science coz too mathmatical but since Prof rafilul teach i seem to like and understand it easy only u must follow the step its look like math but if u understand it easy....and other thing that i apprecite this course is i had come out with data evelopment analysis succesfully ..i measure the effeciency of hospital in selangor ...hahaha..actually i follow thru what was done in a journal which the research take place in Jordan ..what i do i apply it to selangor..........another technique is goal programing ...this one pening sikit...AHP survey just done collecting the data ..today i want to key in the data and do the analysis ...my partner kesian coz take 4 subject so i volenteer to do it..furthermore i like looking at figures and get result...

the most important thing happen yesterday is strategic mgmt prestation on our research proposal... i really stuck coz dont know what theory to use ...i really want to ponteng the class but all my class mate so supportive ..they said just present what u knew ...and there is no right and wrong..some scolded me coz i want to go back...so i decide to just present what i knew and do the power point coz i haven't done any ppt for it yet coz my head so heavy since the day before...i read a lot of journal but the idea not come out yet...

i just do a few slide ...then present but saying i think this is the theory to prof alhamdulliah prof say ok ..my presentation short compare to others coz i just said the methodologhy and why i want to do the study and why its important but i think i got 4 star...prof saya thank u ct...hehe

imagine if i ponteng the class all my reading and thingking will be just wasted so i am so grateful to have a very supportive frens and classmate which always motivate me when i m really stress and confuse...

Next sem will be my last sem i had to take 2 more subject ...i was told one of my classmatte differed ...

at the end of the clas prof say if u are in the 2 year u must have at leaset 10 research proposal..which make me rethink that i should compile whatever research that i had done before the new sem begin ...i think i had done a lot of reserach for every subject but i did not put it in proposal format ...and that what i should do now...so i can figure out what to do for my thesis .........

now i have to complete all the sciend projet and the full report of the proposal which i presented yesterday....may Allah permudahkan segala urusan di dunia and akirat..insya'allah.

2 more class before exam

oh dear a lot of assgmnent to complete within this 2 weeks.........always like this

Usia pendek 1 tahun

2011...left behind 2010 ..
2010 cepat berlalu so many thins happened ..lost my best fren ...my granny and my father...........my health seem deteroit ..always demam and flu this whole years..

2011..more challenging i guess ..just concentrate in my study